So here you are, clicking onto that link in your inbox or simply reaching into my page and stumbled upon this journal.
First of all, thank you.
Thank you for clicking and reading this because I am unsure if anyone is even interested in reading my life status. Before reading any further (because this is a long journal post) I will divide the status in.. uh.. topics? Yeah, so you could skip if you're not interested in them:
== Health Issues and Self-Esteem ==
Well, there is nothing much going on but I find that I get sick many, many times this year.
Earlier of this year, I overworked in my new school. Meetings and meetings and meetings. I worked too hard that I constantly had a migraine and I couldn't get them off. Then I get a problem with my bladder (ew, I know, I'm not suppose to write this down but it's not like anyone is reading... right? :/ ). Then another migraine attack. It hurts too much that even sleeping won't get them off. I can't lay off coffee or I will have a caffeine withdrawal. So I even have to carry my pills around at work in case my head hurts again.
I was once stumbled upon a fact that meetings lower down your IQ. Perhaps that is why my brain hurts so much? XD
Anyways, I didn't get to cosplay this year. I mean, I did but not as much as I usually do. Because I lived far away from home and that I am focusing in my marriage life. You know, getting used to having someone around the house, cooking meals and plan ideas. It's so much fun.
And it's also tiring. Not that I am complaining. XD
Being sick wasn't the only problem that I am facing nowadays.
My low self-esteem have returned and kick me hard in my lady crotch (If you think that's painful, that's how I feel about myself.) Since I got married, I had lost my sense of control and my eating habit increased than usual. So I had gained more than 10kg in a couple of months after I got married. And gaining more months after that too.
I've spent months hating how I looked. I hated how I look in pictures. And I even hate myself looking in the mirror.
I ended up wearing clothes that are big to hide my body and because my clothes do not fit me anymore. It's even worse that the new clothes I bought won't even fit me. And the way people around me notice how I gained so much weight, it's just bums me out that I even cried.
Way to weigh down that self-esteem, huh? So I avoided myself being taken photos. Or even selfies. I just.. hated how I looked.
But that one day, my husband asked me to go out with him for a walk and it changed me.
Not that I see things outside that changed me. But that sweat, the talk, and the wind sort of turn my way around. Adi gave me that gentle push so I could focus in being fit and healthy. And we have been doing this for more than a week now and already I've seen changes.
I checked my scale and it's still maintaining and have not lost any weight since but I've seen changes. Even Adi noticed it.
It's not just me that seem to change, Adi manage to run again and he looked even better than before. I just hope he keeps this up so he could play football again.
== Cosplay Updates ==
As much as Adi is my motivator, I also got my aim for the end of the year. There will be a cosplay event and it's not in Brunei. My husband and a couple of my friends are planning to go to KK for Hobbycon and already I planned in dressing up Baby Doll from Sucker Punch. I had kept her in my cosplan for more than a year now and it's time to make it happen. So I'm working extra hard to portray her.
Also, I'm cosplaying as Lady Loki. More of genderbend Loki from Thor 2. I have already designed the outfit and it's still in the works. I cannot wait to try them on.
I am currently working on Baby Doll's katana. Made out of cardboard, satay sticks, ruler and glue. Just last night I learned to use gesso and it's drying now. I will work on it as soon as I had lunch. XD
I have also been looking at My Little Pony cosplay. My recently MLP try-out is Fluttershy and surprisingly, people over on Facebook seem to like it. <///< My next try-out will be Applejack. XD
== Art stuff / Tasertricks [LokixDarcy] Comics and 'Such Great Heights' ==
Some of you might have noticed that I have not post up any Tasertricks works and some may even worry that I have gave up on them.
Oh hell to the nay!
I have not stopped drawing the two cutie patooties! In fact, I have recently post up the latest Tasertricks comics and did a commission out of them too. Though, I have not post them up here and will do so soon.
'Such Great Heights' have reached to its 12th Chapter. Wow, it's been a year since I started writing and it's still on going. Chapter 13 is in the works and already in the 5-6th page. I think chapter 13 will be longer. I cannot promise you though.
As for art-wise, I have been drawing My Little Pony things. Maybe because I am getting out of the Loki/Tom Hiddleston-vibe. But I do have the feeling of drawing Tom sometimes. XD I have a couple of interesting composition build up and will probably take my work to the next level.
I will need to learn to zoom out and create composition in my artworks. And I am currently practicing my semi-realism drawings so I don't have to rely on references all the time. I will still stick to realism, so not to worry on that.
== Tumblr and all that Jazz ==
After about 3-4 years on Tumblr, it come to my realization that I reblog stuff... TOO MANY STUFF. And it overpowered my artworks. So to those who followed me on Tumblr, I have changed my main page from riotfaerie.tumblr --> hiddlesauce.tumblr AND created an artblog dedicated to post in all my artworks. I made a couple of other blogs too, just so it won't crowd my main page.
Main/Personal blog: hiddlesauce.tumblr.com (I reblog tons of stuff here, post personal things and also put my SGH fanfic here.)
Well, I guess I could say that I have told you all the updating things.
Thank you for stopping by and giving me the love. <3333